MM is cold in YY's new office, 18 degrees celcius...  even the servers won't heat up that quickly...   theres really no need for this kind of air con temperature... 

MM's grades are out, unhappy, but oh wells, MM just hope MM can get into the courses MMwant to take next semester, instead of waiting for sfubusiness to accept MM.... which is ridiculous... since, if MM is in cs already, why can't MM just go in directly...

Stupid YY, must wait longer before MM can get dinner...  MM wish MM can get some soup... MM want soup ...  so much... 

MM miss friends, MM wants to hangout with friends...

Hello to anyone.
Hi to MM & YY.

Today is March 18th, 2009. Wednesday 8:15pm.

MM have decided to start playing w/ xanga again b/c I want to have somewhere to post my random thoughts. It is now a necessity. Someohow.

MM wonders how everyone that I know is doing. Is life going upwards or downwards, safe or unsafe.

MM is currently sitting and waiting for time to past because I am stuck on my homework, why don't I keep working? Because I'm lazy, and lacking... A LOT of confidence, and it feels like I won't get anything done even if I tried. This feelling has been haunting me for quite a while, ever since I start taking this OS courses and some preceding courses, it feels like I can't do anything about it. I have tried before and failed miserably, there're alot of time where I tried my best and still got horrible marks. What should I do? It feels like a waste of time to try my best now. Am I to the end of my limit already?? I'm still so young!!!!!!!!!! XD

MM feels guilt, depression and sadness flowing though my head for the whole day, mainly on the days near the deadly count down of due date for a programming assignemnt. I don't know how to appraoch the problem, and I feel like I won't get anythign done even if I tried because that is what happened for the previous...  1... 2...  3... assignments.

MM feels alot happier when YY is by my side while I go through this and trying to help. But is this really the path I want to go? YY has already gone and passed and got fabulous results from this path, I feel like I want to head to another road, a road that can give me more fun and experience instead of dreading these due dates.

MM thought about culinary arts. Oh yes.. food, I love food, that is why I'm overweight and needs to "keep fiit" now. I want to learn concise cooking, where a perfect dish is only the size of my hand and can make me happy for the rest of the night or day. It must be healthy and yummy, of course, dining w/ YY would pump it to the max. However, all this will be after I finish my degree in university, but theres still 2 yeras to go and I am already fainting from this.

MM has lost the ability to stay optimistic. Or is it because of my health condition? It is true that there are problems with my health, but it shoudln't effect me THAT bad... right?  *sigh*

MM has grown accustomed to YY and started to depend on YY, which is not a good thing when it comes to learning. I learn less and less as YY helps me more and more. I don't want that, but its so much simpler to let it happen. I can't find a better reason to prevent it from happening... So what now?

To be continued...

wheeee~~  omg.. just gonna talk to mysel f here ^^ but oh wells~

facebook.. kills xanga. hmm... 

me goin off to the states.. wonder if things will be okay.. as in..  me being able to go and come smoothly. =p  ~_~  eyes are tired..

new desktop..  which.. geoffry built for me... ..>//>  muu. realli nice samsung lcd...   kind of blinding tho.. lmao..  

i'm booorrreeeddd ~_~  things havn't been transferred from my prev. desktop yet.. so nth here =-="  gar. and stupid geoff hasn't had time to come to do the grunt work T.T  hmph.

dec 15th. some special day for me... haha.. ~_~  lets say..  smth.. that still surprises me. =P